Do u really know what it takes?

I remember very clearly getting a degree.
I had hated that place "Reading the world class agricultural university"
For 2 of the 3 years. The first there was no sobriety
Yet somehow the wonderful "Tess", the beauty, in love with me?

A degree attained, back home, a celebration, realisation, the catch..
Only that i would never be able to say "if only", this, if only that
and be integral. I see now the confused, angry, fighting young man,
the farming dream destroyed, before it had begun, but yet after 21 years

Mother, Father, the hurrincane, banks, fear, lost all for once, not last.
And yet is there fight, spirit, many many losses, millions of generations,
Ancesters talk in our genes, fight, lead and win, or follow, lose, normal,
Stand out from the crowd, its scary, herd animals we are, be the bull?

So now, what is it you speak? I talk of life of land of spirit of nature,
Of the disonnection, the city and lonely, the hope, the truth, the best wins,
Of humans, more animal than any,of dreams of seasons and maturity,
Keep your change and new, leave yourself, there is something better than me.